FML

I finally find a girl that blows me away. She isn't my normal "type" but she is still beautiful, funny, smart, interesting, completely adorable, fun, and so many other things. But those aren't the reasons I like her. I honestly don't even know why I like her or what all it is about her that I like so much. But I do know that she is special and has what no other girl I have ever meet has. Things started before either of us even realized it. Neither of us realized we liked each other until all of our friends had already picked up on it. It just came natural to me. I didn't have to act or try to impress her. I was just me and she liked me. Once we realized that we both liked each other my world became perfect. We didn't spend all our time together but we did spend a lot together. We would do many different things, but one thing we always did was talk. We would just talk with each other for hours. I was truly happy and couldn't have asked for more. But then things ended about as fast as they started. She said that she just wasn't ready for a relationship and that she needed to figure stuff out with herself. So now I'm stuck alone but still absolutely crazy about her and there is nothing I can do but wait. We are still friends so we still hang out but it sucks. Every time I see her all I want to do is kiss her, or hold her, or just anything that gives me some kind of closeness to her. What makes it worst is that no matter how much pain I am in from this and no matter how much I want to tell her how I feel, I can't. I can't because right now she is doing what she needs to and me telling her any of this would just make it harder on her and I can't do that to her. I can only wait for her to be ready to give us a chance again. Even if it does take her a while to get ready I'll wait. She is worth it to me. I will deal with waiting. I just hope that one day she will be ready and that we will be able to try and make things work once again.