Girls

Girls are not good for anything but friends. Just fuck trying to have anything besides friendship with them. I'm done with that garbage. From now on I am looking at girls as friends only, that way I wont get crushed anymore. All that has come from them so far is heartache so I'm done.

Relationships

Since I have came here to college this year there is one thing that I have learned more than anything else. That is that if you can manage to get into a relationship that actually means something to hang on to it because they are not easy to come by. I have been trying to get into a meaningful relationship all year and have failed miserably. I have found four girls that I thought I could have something with and each one has not worked out at all. One I ruined myself but that was because I thought something was going to actually happen with one of the others but it didn't. As much as I still consider them all my friends it sucks that I have been screwed over so much. I try to not worry about it and I try and just shut off my radar and not look for anything but its just really hard for me. Its hard because I want a meaningful relationship so bad and getting that idea out of my head is just hard. I don't really know what to do anymore. I want to try and turn off my radar but I don't know how well I will be able to. But I am also sick of being hurt and maybe that is finally great enough to get me to just shut down looking for someone. I have a lot of thinking to do here in the next week so there will probably be more posts soon.